Monday, February 1, 2010
January was my worst blogging month EVER. (Well, the worst since I really committed to blogging in March 2008.) I just barely kept up with my 101 in 1001 goal to make sure to blog at least 20 times every month.
Really, I just have the winter blues. I'm sick of being stuck indoors. I'm sick of not feeling 100%. I'm sick of TV and of the computer and of the same ol' stuff.
I want to be outside. I want to see green leaves on the trees and feel green grass beneath my feet. I want to enjoy warm weather and sunshine. I want to go to barbecues and weddings and graduation parties.
The other thing that is not helping is having to continue to wait to see whether the changes I referred to last week are, in fact, going to take place. Without knowing what's going to happen, it makes it difficult to plan anything. And I'm nothing without a plan.
I am a PLANNER. I look forward. I concentrate on the future. I love to focus on what's ahead.
So this state of limbo--this state of not knowing--it's sooo not my thing. It's an uncomfortable way of living for me. Still, I know it's good for me. It's good to have to spend some time outside of your comfort zone every once in a while. I just hope to be back in the "nice and comfy" area soon.
The bright side: We are in February. Yes, FEBRUARY!
Though I have to admit--I'm really not a fan of February. Although it is a short month, it always seems to be one of the longest. In my mind, February's only redeeming qualities are my husband's birthday, Tessa's birthday, and the fact that it's one month closer to April. And alright, I guess I could give it the Super Bowl in the "plus" column. But damn, that is it.
I think I need to find a way to keep myself busier. I'm not taking many photos these days because it's cold and it's dark and I like outdoors and natural light. I go to work, I go home. I (maybe) go to the gym. It's boring. But my other problem is that winter just makes me feel lazy. I don't want to do anything right now. All of this makes for a slow winter, that's for sure.
Anyone else suffering from the winter blues? What are you doing to combat the depressing feelings that make it seem like spring will NEVER get here?